1) Who Cares? 2) Really? 3) Again, Who Cares? 3) But seriously, Really??
Now, I realize that this isn't breaking news. Not close, (they were spotted last June swapping spit with their boys in the backseat, no less) but I still think it's kinda amazing that these crazy kids always seem to come back to each other. It's kind of romantic, no? I mean, who doesn't like a good comeback? But, seriously, it's to the point where it's kind of expected that these two will just end up together. Perhaps it's destiny. It could be chemical. No one else seems to measure up? (In Pamela's case that might very well be true - have you seen that video?? Dayum, Tommy) Knowing these two, it's probs the S.E.X. No doubt these guys have hang-from-the-rafters-monkey-sex on a daily basis when they're back on. Maybe they just need those couple of year breaks in between to have widely speculated, very public relationships with other rock stars, low lifes and porn ladies to keep things fresh. On a VERY small, un-public and VD-free scale, I can kinda relate.
Every adult relationship I've had, there's been a break up and then a return to see if it could work out again period. Some of those were multiple returns. In the case of my early 20's, I think I thrived on that up and down misery and drama (and S.E.X. of course) but when I got a little older, I really believed that getting back together in that relationship was going to end up at the alter. In my most recent case of re-relationship do-overs, Smarty Pants showed up at my work and over drinks made a total case for US and our FUTURE and was braver than I'd ever seen him before. I was hopeful, swept up in the romance of it all and genuinely missing him. And turned on. So. Smarty Pants 2.0 was born just 3 months after we had decided to call it off. But despite the fact that we were both heading into our "new" relationship reinvigorated and willing to work on things, the truth was that we coasted on the fumes of that initial, over the top, romantic eve he decided to win me back and by the end of nearly 5 months of that, we lost all fuel to drive us further. We were again on empty and I was feeling like we just weren't meant to be. It was MUCH harder the second time around breaking things off, though. We were both more invested and it had also spanned over a year when all was said and done. When you are in your thirties, a relationship that lasts a year is like 5 in pre-thirties years. People are on a clear path. I know he was, and again, I was feeling the pressure of that and not wanting to waste his time if it just wasn't right.
So here I am again, single for three months now and....doing ok! It's exactly where I want to be. I still am not feeling the internet dating thing but I am allowing myself to be open to any and all possibilities.
And the greatest news of ALL, is that I am back on this blog. I know, it seemed like I broke up with MDP for good...but it's not like I was cheating with another dating blog or anything. I just needed a little break. Tommy and Pam would understand. The truth is, I missed it terribly. So, if you'll have me back....I promise, it'll be worth it. :)
